For so long in my business…and in life…I tried to be someone I’m not. Not playing in my own playground.
Can you relate to this?
Trying to fit in with what family, friends, aquaintences, society all say about who you are and what you should be doing.
Why do we do this?
Most likely it’s because we are seeking approval from those who aren’t supposed to give us approval.
Your only approval should come from yourself.
From your soul.
Knowing that you’ve showed up as who the fuck you actually are…instead of just some watered down wet lettuce version of your soul self.
I’m a Rebel Soul.
My soul fucking loves messy chaos! My genius (aka my uniqueness) flows best…with messy chaos!! Just allowing the channellings to flow through like I’m going white water rafting!
All over the place!
My soul fucking loves that!
And so my energy flows so much better that way…instead of boxing my genius into this pretty little box with pretty ribbon bows on.
The thought of boxing myself up, boxing in my genius, watering down who I am to appeal to those who will never be my clients and adjusting my message so as not to piss people off….it bores the pants off me!
I felt constricted and constrained.
Like my soul’s message was chomping at the fucking bit to be let out like an untethered animal (I’m thinking a Tasmanian Devil LOL)…and I was caging it up.
To appeal to…nobody really.
Because how do you think your soulmate clients can show up for you…when you aren’t showing up for you.
Think on that.
If you’re just some watered down version of yourself, just treading water to keep your head afloat instead of allowing the waves to take you wherever you’re supposed to go…then you can’t expect your business or your life or your relationships to be anything other than, well, mediocre at the best of times.
The thing is, we’ve been conditioned for so long to rein it in. To box in our genius. To not show up fully in case we piss someone off (aka trigger their ego). To not dream big. To come back down to earth (no fuckers, we’re limitless fucking souls…not earthbound beings!). To not rise above our station. To not get too big for our boots. To be happy with what we have. To settle down.
And so the list goes on.
This list above…is B.U.L.L.S.H.I.T.
Why the fuck are we listening to others who let go of their dreams a long time ago?
Those who don’t want to rattle any cages because they are too conditioned to stay in the 3D matrix cage and not go anywhere else.
Those who are too scared of their own egoic fears and illusions to actually do anything else with their lives.
Those who want to be seen to be playing by the rules (whatever rules they are) so that they they can hope to fit in with a boring bunch of people who will never be their people.
Your soul wants freedom.
It wants choices.
It came here to play!!!!
You get to create your own playground.
You get to show up however the fuck you want to.
You get to be messy and chaotic and just…flow!
You get to create life on your terms…not on others terms.
And anyone who tells you differently is coming from an illusion mindset. One that holds them back.
Do you think Steve Jobs played by the rules?!
Nope…he came here to play with his genius and create a new way of being!
How was I showing up in a way that was boring the pants off my soul?!?!
Maybe you can related to some of these!
As someone who has always wanted to have an online business, I knew that I wanted to blog, vlog and coach/mentor people. I knew that social media was key to gaining momentum in my business.
But I continued to water it down.
I bought into others bullshit.
I bought into others limiting beliefs.
I bought into others way of doing things.
I bought into it all…even though I knew it wouldn’t work for me (Rebel Soul LOL)…but I followed those who were already where I wanted to be.
But failed to see that this worked for them because that fitted with their energy and their genius.
Creating Instagram grids?! Bores the fuck out of me! I want to share my content in my way…messy and chaotic and flowing!
Blogging in a certain way because “experts” say you have to offer a structure on your blog?! Fuck off, it bores me! Again, my message flows when I allow it to flow and take the reins off!
Building a YouTube channel based on what I thought others wanted?! Yeah it appealed to my ego (don’t you just love ego!) to see my numbers going up but it also left me feeling frustrated because I wasn’t giving my all to my work, again, boxing it in…rather than being messy and chaotic and working with my natural rebel energy.
Why do we do any of this?!
Because we’re scared.
Scared of not fitting in.
Being the girl or guy at school who didn’t get invited to things or wasn’t picked for teams. So we changed who we are to appeal to the bitches who weren’t particularly nice anyway.
Scared of being rejected for who we truly are.
You, my friend, are magical as fuck! Your soul has crafted who you are over lifetimes!!! Why oh why are you trying to be anything other than who you are?!
You’re worried about being rejected or not fitting in or not being invited to play with the cool kids….because you don’t recognise how fucking magical you are, how amazing your unique genius is…and how much of a catch you are!
You go along with things in your business, ways of doing things, because you see others doing the same (despite them also selling their soul in the long run too!)…because you aren’t claiming your identity.
Because you’re scared to do so.
Scared you won’t have any friends or clients or business.
Or that people will think you weird if they see the real you.
And you’re scared shitless to actually do the fucking work that will get you where you want to be…because it’s easier to buy into your own bullshit excuses and tell yourself things like:
- “It’s too hard!”
- “Nobody will buy from me if I do that!”
- “I can’t charge that! Nobody else is charging that!”
- “I’ve gotta work work work and hustle all the way!”
- “I can’t invest in myself with someone who can see right through me…because I’m scared of what they’ll see so I’ll stick with someone who doesn’t resonate with me”
The excuses are limitless as to why you aren’t showing up for yourself!
Limiting beliefs from yourself and others.
But when you start just embracing who you are, what makes you unique, what your differences are, what your fucking genius is…you start to reveal your true self, your soul self.
You allow your soul to show up as the Sovereign of your life…commanding respect, commanding to be seen for who you are and creating your own rules to play by.
But until you stop selling your soul to fit in with others, you’re never going to achieve your dreams.
And what hurts the most??
Holding back from your true self and continuing to play small and never really fully allowing your soul to shine.
That shit hurts!
Because you feel it within you to live your life a certain way.
You feel it within you to have what you desire to have and dream about.
But how the fuck do you think you’re going to achieve any of that…if you are continuing to buy into the conditioning of others, to dim your light, to keep asking permission to show up, to do things that don’t speak to your soul, to charge low ass prices for your genius that don’t speak to your soulmate clients?!
Everything is literally written in the stars!
The life we choose, the lessons we ask for, the experiences we have….everything.
Because we come here with a roadmap so to speak to help us get to where we want to be. To help our soul evolve to that next level.
But we continue to dumb shit down and not play in our own fucking playground for fear of being seen as different or buying into others limiting beliefs.
Do you know how many times I’ve heard in the spiritual community bullshit like “you’ve got money blocks”, “you’re not open to having money”, “you can’t charge that..nobody will pay you that”, “just be humble with what you have”…etc.
These are the egoic mutterings of others!
Their own limiting beliefs!
Their own bullshit stories they tell themselves!
Why aren’t you calling in the abundance you crave? The soulmate clients you should be working with? The endless opportunities that you know are available to you? The epic fucking cash?!
Why aren’t you?!
Because you’re too fucking scared to show up as yourself and write your own rules.
You’re too fucking scared to trigger others by being all in with your power and your genius.
You’re too fucking scared to think for yourself and let others tell you how to think, act, be…even shit lol
You’re too fucking scared to charge what your intuition and Spirit tell you to charge because somewhere along the lines you’ve listened to someone else’s limiting beliefs (who will, by the way, NEVER BUY FROM YOU ANYWAY!)
You’re too fucking scared to play in your playground for fear of missing out (FOMO!) in case you end up playing all by yourself.
When you play in your playground…you invite those at your level to come play too.
But how can they, if you aren’t showing them that the playground is open FFS?!
If you’re sat on the swings in someone else’s playground, feeling lost, feeling disillusioned, feeling bored as fuck…whilst your playground over yonder calls to you, beckons you, entices you to leave the confines and the safety of the world you’ve always known?
You’re afraid of rejection.
Afraid of abandonment.
Afraid of being a Billy No Mates.
Afraid of being all in with your power and your genius..in case you end up all alone.
And so, you don’t show up.
You continue to play small.
You continue to struggle.
You continue to push away your soulmate clients.
And you live a life that almost made it, but never fully got there.
You get 1 shot at this life…1 shot. And yes you have many lifetimes and you’ll keep striving for your goals in the next lifetime.
But if you’re woke now, if you’re conscious of your soul’s existence and purpose now, why fucking wait?!
The life you desire and that you dream of…is waiting for you.
It’s waiting for you to get up off those swings in someone else’s playground and to go play on your own in yours…showing others that your playground is now open so that they can come play too.
But you can’t expect your soulmate clients and soul family to show up for you…until you go play in your own playground first and show the world that you’re ready to play full out on your terms.
How are you not showing up for yourself? Why are you not playing in your playground? Let me know in the comments!