When Your Vision Burns So Fucking Bright Within You – You Can’t NOT Follow It

Sep 26, 2022

Vision. This is something I’m super passionate about and I forever speak to my clients – AND myself – about Vision.

Because the thing is – when you have a Vision that burns so fucking bright within you, which blinds you with the light, which calls to you night and day, pulsating within you, constantly calling to you – you simply can’t NOT follow it.

Especially when – and even more importantly when – shit hits the fan, life gets hard and you feel like giving up.

Or when the naysayers crawl out of the corners with their limiting beliefs, their fears projected onto you and the gravestones of their own visions laying beside them.

I had a vision 10 years ago in 2012 that I wanted to be an entrepreneur.

This was long before I went through my Spiritual Awakening in 2017 and then proceeded to leave my marriage, become a single parent, no job, fuck loads of debt and an idea that I wanted to create something new for myself – all within the space of 3 weeks back in June 2018.

(Side note: June is forever my Rebirth month – when I decide “fuck it” – and tear shit down. June 2018 – the month I started to rebirth myself back into the world after being lost for so long).

Going back to vision. In 2012 I had a vision that I wanted to be an entrepreneur. I was working in a job that was stressful and was having a huge impact on my mental health. I’d taken a lot of time off for depression and stress due to bullying in the work place, feeling unheard by the managers regarding the extent of the bullying and just so utterly fucking low in my life.

I found myself thinking over and over again, “Is this it?! Is this all there is to life?”. I know you’ve felt that too.

I found myself wondering why do I have to settle for some shitty as fuck job, some awful colleagues who were downright nasty (not all of them, but a select few) and a stressful environment that was not beneficial to my mental health.

I wanted to be free.

So in September 2012, I was introduced to a business opportunity with a network marketing company. It sparked something inside of me – that I could be the creator of my own freedom and that I could create a life on my own terms for myself.

I spent 5 years in that industry across a multitude of companies – seeking.

Seeking what?

Something.

Anything.

Seeking.

Until an epiphany in November 2017 as I was driving which practically slapped me around the face.

Whilst I had a vision to create freedom for myself, to create life on my terms and to inspire others – the vehicle for that wouldn’t be found in the network marketing industry.

That wasn’t my path.

The path – was me.

Creating my vision through me.

Building my own company.

My own Empire.

(Although I wasn’t thinking of Empires back then).

I realised that whilst I’d been frustrated in the network marketing industry (and this isn’t a dig at the industry, I know many people who are still friends from my days in the industry who have gone on to create a lot of success for themselves), that it simply wasn’t my path and I wasn’t meant to build someone else’s business for them.

I was meant to build my own.

With my name.

My brand.

Being the niche myself.

All of me.

Thus proceeded much back and forth time in my mind, questioning myself, doubting myself, basing my future success on my inability to create any success in network marketing and feeling like a failure.

Yeah – the Shadow was big and loud!

It was around this time that the epiphany had slapped me hard that I decided I would create a website. A blog.

I’d recently discovered that my part-time job would be ending “sometime in the next 6 months” (so vague!) due to the company I was working for ending a contract they had with the government.

(I used to work with the long-term unemployed and those with disabilities and/or health conditions to help get them back into employment and it was all funded by the government).

I’d felt frustrated – again. Because I found myself back in the same place worrying about finances, worrying about what kind of job I’d have to get and just feeling deflated in my life at how lost I felt.

The epiphany had woken me up – that instead of creating something for myself through someone else’s business, I could create a life on my terms through my own business.

That I could create my vision and breathe life into my vision.

This vision I had for myself that called to me over and over and over again.

I wanted to create life on my fucking terms.

I wanted to feel free.

I wanted to travel.

I wanted to create financial security for myself to change the broken fucking record (hello Shadow!) that I had to stay broke, living pay cheque to pay cheque and always scratching around for more.

I was tired of that bullshit.

Tired of feeling so fucking lost.

Tired of feeling this vision pulsating within me and feeling like I didn’t know which way to turn.

I have said this numerous times to clients and within my videos, podcasts and written content – your vision is your vision and your desires are your desires.

Meaning – whatever it is that calls to you so deeply, that pulls you along in the Darkness, breathing life into you even when life gets hard, stoking the fire within you when all you want to do is run and hide from life – is your vision because somewhere in another dimension, another timeline – another reality – an aspect of your Consciousness is living that vision.

Being that person.

Your vision is your vision – your desires are your desires – because you are living that life already in another timeline.

Our desires aren’t there for shits and giggles. Our vision isn’t just something airy fairy and “nice to have”.

Vision and desire is there because it already exists.

As I like to say, this is “future you” aka your Higher Self calling you and telling you what’s up.

I often joke that I have no desire to be a fighter jet pilot. It never enters my mind as wishful thinking of, “that would be great to do!” kind of thing.

Never.

Why?

Because there is zero aspect of my Consciousness in any realm, any dimension, any timeline or lifetime who is a fighter jet pilot.

Zero.

This has – and never will be – part of a desire for me.

I feel I need to say this because so often we dismiss our desires and our vision as wishful thinking. As “nice to haves” so to speak.

No.

Our desires – when they come from the heart and from our soul (not ego based ones of those wanting more money for the sake of it, a new car for the sake of it or a hot lover for the sake of it etc) are our desires because this already exists for us somewhere within the aether.

Within the Universe.

Now, here’s the caveat, just because they are our heart-centred and soul-led desires and vision, this doesn’t mean they will always happen.

I know – party pooper.

Because in order to create them – we have to become them.

We have to become that person who is living that life that calls to us so deeply.

We have to live & breathe that person.

We have to be that identity. That consciousness.

And – that’s the hardest thing to do.

Is be you.

All of you.

The true you.

Not the ego you. The Shadow you. The illusion you.

But – you.

The Divine You. The True You. Your Truth. All of you.

Your Divine Blueprint, so to speak.

And yet – we’ve spent our lifetime being someone we’re not. Conditioned by society, parents, family, upbringing, systems, teachers, religion, politics, beliefs and illusions.

Conditioned. Programmed.

Disconnected from our true Soul Essence.

Bringing Shadow from other lifetimes with us. Running that Shadow programme unconsciously within our Energetic Field.

Repeating the energies of other lifetimes that are no longer required for our highest vision.

Being the illusionary identity instead of living as our Highest Frequency Consciousness.

So, in order to birth our vision and be our vision, we have to become our vision.

This isn’t some airy fairy New Age bullshit about the Law of Attraction.

You know the stuff I’m referring to – “just decide what you want, say your affirmations and it’ll happen”.

No.

This is about getting really fucking raw and real with yourself.

Playing in the murky depths of yourself.

In the dirt.

In the Darkness.

In the Shadows.

This is about seeing the Illusion for what it is. Illusion. Shadow Energy.

The Multidimensional Shadow.

It is not our Divine Truth. It is not our True Identity. It is not our Highest Frequency Consciousness.

It isn’t.

It is illusion.

And so in order to create our vision – to be our fucking vision – we have to let go of everything about us that is not our Truth.

We have to strip ourselves bare.

All of us.

Stripping everything from ourselves that is not our Truth.

And that is the hardest thing you’ll ever do.

Stripping away the illusion. The false identity. The Shadow. Digging underneath the ego to find our Truth that was there all along.

Giving space to our vision to breathe life into us.

To be our Guiding Star on the darkest of nights even when there appears to be no other lights around.

When you have a vision so fucking big inside of you that burns so bright – you can’t NOT follow it.

Even when times get hard.

Even when the journey through our Darkness becomes so painful.

Even when it feels like everything in our life is crumbling away.

Even when people think you’re crazy and they try to pull you back down to their own limitations.

Even when you feel like giving up and “settling” with a mediocre existence of you not fully being you.

Even when all of this – and more – that vision will continue to burn brighter and brighter inside of us until we just let go.

And – become.

The sad thing is that so many people give up on their vision. They let it go. They settle. They believe in the Dream Stealers and the Naysayers.

In the ones who’ve already buried their dreams and visions and now sit lamenting at the graveyard for Lost Dreams.

So many people give up when life gets hard. When the journey of Self-Transformation gets hard. When it seems like nothing is working for us or showing up in our lives in the 3D reality.

Giving up – broken, tired and weary from the journey.

Giving up.

Putting the vision away.

Locked in a drawer “for another day”.

Some day.

One day.

And this is exactly why that vision burns so fucking bright within you. Stoking the fire within you. Prodding you. Poking you. Driving you.

Consuming you.

Because it has to.

It needs to be bigger than your fears. Stronger than your Shadow. More resilient than the Illusion.

It has to be.

Because in order to become that person – that Identity which calls to you like a beacon in the Darkness – you have to let go of everything around you that isn’t your Truth.

And get used to being uncomfortable. Scared. Uncertain.

But oh so fucking powerful!

As you navigate yourself through The Unknown.

Through the Darkness.

Through the Void.

Navigating yourself through the uncertainties that exist before you as you move through them.

Tearing shit down.

Burning the old.

Creating way for the new.

To birth you.

Your Highest Truth. Your Highest Frequency.

You.

Because – Dear One – your vision will never stop calling to you.

Your Truth. Your True Identity. Your Divine Truth. Your Divine Blueprint. Your Authentic Self.

Will never stop calling to you – until you answer the fucking call.

Sadly, so many people give up on their vision. On their dreams. Putting it all away “for another day”.

Or, even sadder, burying their vision and dreams in an unmarked grave somewhere obscure – never to be found again.

Telling themselves a big fat lie that they’ll be ok.

That maybe it wasn’t meant to be.

That maybe they were being too unrealistic with their vision and their dreams.

That maybe – just maybe – they should settle down with this life and go back to reality.

Honestly. How fucking tragic is that?!

And I have seen it.

Multiple friends. Business connections. Family. Coworkers.

People who just – gave up.

Who went back to their lives – their reality – the one that was – and still is – so fucking painful to live in.

And accepted it.

Burying their dreams, their vision, their Truth.

And I refuse to see that in the world.

I refuse to see it.

I know how fucking hard it is to keep going.

Over and over and over again.

Even when you sound crazy as fuck to others. Even when your vision makes no fucking sense to even you – because it is so far out there and so far removed from your current reality that it’s hard to even comprehend it.

But – it exists.

It bloody well exists.

Because it’s your fucking vision.

The one your Higher Self is showing you.

The one that “future you” is showing you (for want of a better phrase because there really is no past or future – only the now – with everything existing in all Space, Time & Dimensions simultaneously and multidimensionally).

It exists.

And you get to create it – to pull that energy through to the now – to create your reality based on your vision by becoming that vision and oozing it from every fucking orifice of your body, mind and soul.

Oozing it out of you – being the vision – being your True Self, your Divine Self.

Rebirthing yourself.

Activating your Divine Blueprint.

Becoming whole again.

It starts with refusing to let go as you weave your way through the Darkness, through the murky depths of your psyche, through the fears, the traumas, the Shadows and the unfinished business of your soul from other lifetimes.

It starts there.

Weaving.

Creating.

Wielding your Truth so you become your vision.

And being the one who shows others what’s possible.

Because nothing is impossible.

We are Magickal fucking Beings.

And it starts there, Dear One.