It’s been around 2 months since I last published a blog post on my website. I know…fucking terrible!!! Me, the author, the writer…the one who bloody loves writing…because it feeds my soul…stopped writing. And leaned into myself as the Mirror that I am.
Stopped creating content.
Stopped fucking creating.
As I write this there’s currently a ginormous full moon in Leo gracing our skies…creative flair!
But…over the last few months I went into a period of hibernation. I retreated. I suppose…like a bear in winter going into hiberation to wait for the warmer months.
Waiting for some inspiration in my life and business. Some divine download. Some piece of magic to grace my life like a giant epiphany.
I’ve had many downloads. Many epiphanies. Many “aha” moments and lightbulbs.
But, hey, I’m a Multipassionate Visionary so that’s nothing unusual for me.
But…I lost heart. I lost my way. Moving away from the crowds, the overpopulated online space, the noise…oh fuck me the endless fucking noise in the online space…ugh.
I tried to drown it out. Switch it off. Stop following those who I’d looked up to as online mentors. Stopped the Facebook scrolling. Unsubscribed from so many things.
As a Highly Sensitive Empath, too much “noise” just gets on my fucking nerves and winds me up. Leading to that danger zone of “comparisonitis” and not feeling good enough. Even though I know that we are all on our own paths…our own journey…and that we each have something unique to offer in this world.
18 months into my business…I was still trying to find “my” thing. I hate the word “niche”…I think it’s bullshit…especially for multipassionates…especially for us.
And yes…multipassionates do fucking exist. We are gifted in many ways and desire to bring all creations to life. Now. There’s always gonna be someone telling you that multipassionates don’t exist, that you just haven’t “found your niche yet”…and to niche down.
Seriously…fuck the fucking niche.
That’s my response to Cookie Cutter answers. And those who don’t understand true Revolutionaries, Visionaries and Multipassionates.
You can’t niche down, girl….because you are the fucking niche.
Your wisdom and know-how.
Yet we live in a world driven by those who don’t understand energy like I do. Those who don’t realise that we are all different. We each have different ways of working…some are more left-brained and some more right-brained….some more academic and some are more creative….some are here to serve by leading and others are here to serve whilst giving etc.
These last few months I’ve really been diving deeper into my love and fascination of Astrology and my new found love, Human Design.
They truly fascinate me especially when it comes to understanding our uniqueness, celebrating our quirks and tuning into these for an overview of our unique energetic signature.
Our Soulprint…as I like to call it.
We are all unique…Astrology and Human Design have provided me with a deeper understanding of my own depths and how I show up uniquely in the world. Helping me to understand more about what I’m here to do in this lifetime…my soul purpose…my calling…so that I can truly following my Destiny.
(For those interested, I’m a Virgo Sun, Capricorn Moon and Sagittarius Rising…with a Virgo Stellium and 9th house Stellium…and a 12th house Neptune conjunct my Ascendant…basically..woke as fuck! I’m also a 4/6 Generator but with the Human Design mind and body of a Reflector)
I went into my own hiberation as I continued to get more and more fucked off with the online space. Watching others “blowing shit up” online and whilst I celebrate any woman doing well online and creating a business from scratch…I wanted my own piece of the pie.
Yes, I’ve had clients. I’ve made sales. But I know I’m here to play far bigger than I have been. Truth – we all are!
And yet I seemed to go round in circles with what I’m offering and where I’m growing my business. I got burnt…again…over the summer by a bullshit programme I joined that really wasn’t designed for someone like me…and yet at the time I joined it because I thought it could give me direction.
Truth – only you can truly know what lights you up and when you follow your soul…and I mean truly fucking surrendering to who you are and what you do so fucking well…thats when magic happens!
Because over the summer…I gave my power away. I thought I needed someone to help me strategise my business…when really…it just turned out to be the same old regurgitated content that I’ve seen hundreds of times online with nothing new.
But…that was a lesson I chose to go through. Because whilst in the programme…I saw the true extent of my unique power as that of a Mirror.
I’ve known for a couple of years that I’m a Mirror since I learnt following my spiritual awakening that I’m what’s known as a Heyoka Empath. Someone who mirrors and reflects back to someone who they are. This is why I trigger people. It’s why my energy can just uproot someone who seems so grounded….and flip them around so they truly see themselves.
Its why I create a range of emotions and reactions in people when they come too close to my energy…intentionally or unintentionally:
- triggered as fuck
- ghosting me
But above all, I create rapid revolutionary transformation within others…what I like to call my signature “Tsunami Effect”. I allow people to truly see themselves…good and bad…because this is how we grow and evolve.
I subconsciously facilitate growth and change within people ranging from positive to negative emotions depending on where someone is at in their lives and whether they are willing to face up to their truths or just hide from them:
- I have people clinging onto my energy because I make them feel good about themselves as I show them their own beautiful qualities which they think are within me but really are within them.
- I’ve had people telling me how lit up and inspired they are after being with me and how they are inspired to take massive fucking action in their lives and business.
- I’ve had people call me an “egoic fucking bitch” after my energy triggered their own unhealed wounds and shadows
- I’ve had people get angry in my face for no apparent reason
- I’ve had people ghost me
- I’ve had people be awful towards me because they cannot stand to see what they see in the mirror I reflect back to them
- I’ve had people be so euphoric with happiness because I’ve literally transformed their lives
Because I don’t believe in dragging transformation out. I work with Energetics and Consciousness to truly revolutionize where someone is at in their life…creating a domino effect of rapid fire transformation.
- I break down illusions
- I remove masks
- I reach into the darkness and pull shadows out to transform them into powerful gold
Because I’m an Alchemist. A Mirror. A Catalyst for Spiritual, Personal and Entrepreneurial Growth. And I don’t believe in dragging shit out like most people do.
I work within the Quantum Field. The Cosmic Realm. Superconscious galactic activations are my magic!
And my eyes?!?! They look deep into you to pull out everything you’re hiding from and aren’t owning about yourself. That’s my magic!
As a Mirror…I’m different. I’m pretty fucking unique which I knew anyway…but I downplayed it because I allowed myself to get caught up in the endless fucking noise online.
Instead of being the Revolutionary that I am and creating my own path.
And I needed this time of hibernation to truly go within and find myself even more. To become comfortable with who I am and my own uniqueness and to actually own that.
When you’re a Highly Sensitive Empath like myself, it can be very easy to be swayed by others when you aren’t grounded in who you are. Even if you think you are.
When you’re so fucking unique…a magical Unicorn…there really is nobody else who you can relate to. Its why I’ve always struggled to find a Mentor/Coach for my business…I’ve hired the wrong people…those who were either too Cookie Cutter or those who just couldn’t accept my uniqueness…which lead to frustrations.
Because I do desire to work with someone who can be a Mentor and help me grow my business even more. But…I’ve found that that type of person I’d love to work with…doesn’t exist. Or…I’ve just not met them yet.
I don’t believe we always have to work with someone. But, I’m all for investing in yourself with someone who can take you to the next level in your life, relationships, business…whatever it is for you…when you’re ready to do so.
But the ungrounded me…couldn’t see that. My spiritual awakening happened fast…literally rapid fucking fire…and so the level of growth I went through is the same that someone else would take 5-10 years to go through.
I chose the fast-track. My soul loves growth…fast growth! Which is why I deliver my own Tsunami Effect with clients…touching lives in a way that infiltrates the rest of their lives and those around them…fast.
Because I don’t believe in dragging shit out. Journalling for hours a day. Doing endless affirmations. Meditating every day.
I don’t believe they are necessary to be done to the extent that a lot of people do these activites. Yes, I journal…when I want to instead of because I have to. Yes I meditate when I want to…not because I feel I have to etc.
I’ve let go of so much around me. So many people. So many thought patterns. So many unconscious behaviours. So many ways of doing things. And I needed my hibernation time to really drown out the noise of what’s around me and find myself.
As is necessary for us all.
Growth is never something we can fit into a box. It happens when it needs to happen and however it needs to happen.
So…this is me. I’ve stripped more away from myself. Realising that I wasn’t playing as big as I knew I’m capable of. Buying into the bullshit of the online space about how to grow a business – newsflash, do you, always. And just growing more and more into the powerhouse that I am.
The Spiritual Catalyst who can create revolutionary, out-of-this-fucking-world transformation within others.
Because that’s what I’m here to do. Any fucking which way I decide.
And the same goes for you…choosing to be true to yourself, to do you, to switch off from the Cookie Cutters and just truly embody your own uniqueness.
The world is waiting for you.